I am an artist of my own creation. 

Sleeping Alone Again

 

Without you in it,

My bed is the worst place to be.

I can't sleep tonight,

I need you next to me.

Your pillow cannot fill your space,

And my memories sadly take the place

Of your sleeping form.

Why is it so hard to sleep alone?

I thought I was full grown,

But any more, I can't do this on my own.

This is something I should have known.

Even though you will be back with time, 

I can no longer call this place mine,

Because it was ours and you haven't left my mind.

When the night comes that you'll be forever gone,

Know that I'm coming, and I won't be long.

I'll just have to tell a few old friends goodbye,

And since they're memories, they won't cry. 

          -Samantha 

http://www.best-love-poems.com/poems.php?id=1042276

Sunshine of Life.

 

Next time, look before you fall. 

A Dream Come True: Never The Strangers

"Bago Mahuli Ang Lahat" 

 

              It was Monday, June 16, 2012 when finally after nights of longing to see them perform came to an end. I woke up on the wrongs side of my bed. I was late. It was like I ate bitterness for breakfast. In short, I wasn't in my best mood that time. When I reached the gates of the school, I saw tents, colorful tents that caught my eye. I forgot that the General Freshmen Orientation was on that day. I met my classmates near the gymnasium. The program started at exactly 8:00am. I wasn't myself when they announced that their main guest will be Never the Strangers. I was like "WHAT THE FUCK??". Suddenly my mood started to change. From a dull nagging person to a very psychotic happy person (well that's what my classmates told me). And then the band came out. The crowd goes wild! Especially when they saw Ace. My friends and I ran fast as we can to get a closer view of them. Luckily we were fast. I think I was less than a meter from them. I was so happy that time. They played "Alive" first.They even performed their new single "Bago Mahuli Ang Lahat". It was priceless moment. I will never forget this one. I hope there will be more of that to come. Dreams do come true.

Who am I living for?

 

                   Just downloaded the song "Who Am I Living For", written and performed by Katy Perry. At first, the song didn't catch my attention. But when I tried to learn the lyrics and understand the meaning, it helped me understand a hidden side of the writer. 

                   Katy wrote about her query regarding her true purpose. I learned that she used to write and sing Christian songs before. She even had an album widely dedicated to God. However she wasn't that famous. Her stage name was Katy Hudson. But as what we expect in a Christian composer, she didn't stayed too long in the limelight or she hardly did. 

                    After she had written pop songs like the smash hit "I kissed A Girl, she had landslide victory against the other singers in the Billboard 100. This achievement made her more inspired to keep writing pop songs. In short she had written songs that attracted more and more fans around the globe. These songs were too far from her original songs. They are all about earthly things like money, fame and even sex. 

                    The song highlights the waking question "Who Am I Living For?" When she wrote the song, it's like she's been slapped by the truth that she is moving too far from what God had appointed her to do and that's working for faith. My favorite line from the song is "I can see the heavens but I still hear the flames calling out my name."  This is one of the key ideas of the song. If you think of it, it is obvious that Katy is finally seeing the right path but still being tempted by the shiny flames around her.  

                     I asked myself, who am I really living for?

"She finds color in the darkest places

      She finds beauty in the saddest of places

       She's such a cute, head strong city girl

Coulda had the world

   But ya falling in love in the worst way

       And if you don't go now, then you stay"

              

              

                 I never expected that it will last longer than a month. It's been a year and 3 months na pala. I don't  know what to say right now. I just couldn't believe it. I know that I'm not the perfect boyfriend. I made mistakes that almost changed her mind and heart. Ever since the day we first met, I've been giving her troubles. She should have walk away. All those heartaches I gave her were too much but somehow she managed to forgive me. However I know that she will never forget a single detail from our dark past. 

              Gratitude, Affection and Loyalty is what I can only offer her. Plans of tomorrow will never be accomplished without her. I'm not livin that life. The idea of tomorrow without her is unimaginable. Please give me this chance to tell Jami Vivas Samson of Cavite how much I would give up just to see her smile. I love you until the last beat of my heart. Happy Monthsarry Babe <3

UNCHARTED.

"No words, my tears won't make any room for more 

and it don't hurt like anything I've ever felt before, this is

no broken hearts, 

no familliar scar

  this territory goes UNCHARTED." 

I'm not sure of the path that I'm taking. There's no assurance of victory in this road. People, trees, signs, road and air are all exotic. Never before seen things that might change my life. The change is unknown. It's a blur in the end. Are they enemies or friends, That I do not know. My bags are zipped, and the green is in my wallet. Whether I like it or not, I'm riding the bus to a place UNCHARTED. 

Saturday Regrets ;)

 

Good Morning! Happy Saturday everyone! I've been waiting for the weekends to come for such a long time. I need a break from 2nd week of College. I find this week to be an eye opening week for me. I realized that I really made the wrong choice and I can't do anything to change it. I just have to accept it. Choosing Biology as my Pre Med is a big no no and the school, well I know it's not that bad but I find it very hard to deal with that kind of environment everyday or for a year. I confessed to my family about how I'm feelin about it. Well of course, my mom told me that I was really wrong for not choosing what she wants for me. Her exact words were " Sinabi ko na sayong wag ka na diyan magaaral, gustong gusto mo. Eh di ayan, mag tiis ka ng isang taon diyan. Yung gusto mo laging sinusunod mo.". I feel so stupid. What was I thinking? Choosing that school over UP? I don't want to think about it na. I guess 2012 is not really my year. I just hope next school year, I won't have this kind of problem again. Blog ya later. =)

When Black And White Collides

  

High School Graduate!

The Time Of My Life

Finally, after all the hard works and sacrifices, I am now walking along the aisle. I said to myself, "Yes! Graduation na!".  As I take every steps, flashbacks of yesterday flooded my mind.   The day when I first entered High school. Wow, 4 years na pala? I can still remember that day like it was yesterday. All my expectations were high that time. I was expecting everything's going to be different from middle school. However, there's one thing that I realized, it's more fun in high school.

I can say that who am I today is all because of the things that I experienced and learned from the golden years of High school.  The people may not always be around but one thing's for sure, the memories will stay.

`Long Live. 

The Last letter.

How could I ever forget someone who made me feel that I could be love, I could be admire and I could light someone Else's life and give meaning to it.Who could forget her snow white skin? Her fragrant hair. Her soft skin. I know I'm never getting over you.You were the best thing that ever happened to me. You made my summer cozy and you always make me smile despite of the toils I have. Every doubts disappear when you tell me you love me Those 8 months were the best months of my life. I would give up everything just to feel those moments again. Yes. You were right, I've been thinking about the future too much that's why I forgot about what's in the present. Now, all those plans will never happen. I lost you. And no matter how long I cry every night, I know you'll never going back. I kept all your letters so that I could still read them every time I miss you. I made you cold. I'm the sole reason why you're acting as cold as a stone. Now, you have learn to hate me. there's no one I could blame but me. I just want to tell you that I still love you. Always have and always will.